Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

Once again, I've shared a bottle of cheap red wine with just me and the moon. I would like to thank God for music. It has truly saved me so many times. There's nothing better than just rocking out to your favorite tunes on the stereo. Not caring if the people in the car next to you hears you belting it out or if someone walks in on you doing a solo on the air guitar. That's what I see as happiness. Going over the material for the "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" and watching A LOT of One Tree Hill, I've been consently reminded that I am, in fact, single. HOWEVER(!), I am so blessed that I am! To think that I have could have centered my life around another person and disregarded what God has in store for me...well, I'm just excited to see where I'm going. Anyways, I'll just keep belting out my favorites tunes and keep praying for you. Wherever & whomever you are, I'm thinking about you and praying that you're happy. God bless you! Peace!

Enjoying Life's Simple Pleasures

Looking through the wine glass, everything seems a little hazy. Lately, my grandma has been in hospital and been talking about going to heaven. Well, she's been talking about that for what now seems forever. Anyways, I put on some Five for Fighting and "100 Years" and it really got me thinking about life in general. What would i tell myself if i could go back in time? What simple little phrases could i say to direct a naive young man to make the right decisions. What would you tell yourself??? Maybe I've had too much wine tonight, but the directions life takes us has been on my mind for awhile. I'll admit that it's easier to hide from all life's problems. To get into the habit of enjoying the easy way out, but will that make us happy in the long run.

Relationships, thats another subject on my mind. Why do we have to believe that in order to find true happiness we must find it another individual?? I won't deny that I've loved someone more than myself, and thats what a relationship must consist of, but to think that you can't be happy if that person isn't there in your life? That's just silly. But, then again I've had too much wine.

The main point I guess I'm trying to present is that I hope you really look at the motives behind your actions. To acknowledge what our true intentions are, whether or not we want to admit them. Like if you're staying at a job because it pays the bills, but it isn't what you want to do for the rest of your life. Or if you're staying in a relationship because you've been in it for awhile or the other person keeps you in it. For me, I've lived life not admitting why I was doing what I was doing it. To now finally see that in order to find peace in my actions that I must evaluate what my motives are. To see women at their true beauty, not just if they're hot or not. To look at my occupational choices at whether I want like doing them or if its just paying the bills. To be an example to those around me as a true man or if I'm just giving into the pressures of being liked and sacrificing my morals. With all that said, i'm going to bed. Good night! Oh, by chance, if Sara Bareilles is reading this, Will you marry me??

Inspiration

Each day that passes, the burden of life gets heavier. To think that some of the opportunities for life have already walked by, and now seem so distant. There are words that I've said, and more that I haven't that I would try to do differently. Also, there are some that I wouldn't change at all. With each desperate second, inspiration seems quite clear. Every image that I process, figuring it all out is very near. I want to be a man of fine character. A person you can trust, but my reputation is far from a trusty, clean slate. For those that have been abandoned, I was already lost. For those that were lied to, the truth lies within you. For those that were loving, only love will still save you. For those that are listening, I hope you don't make the same mistakes I do...